You Know You Don't Get Out Much When...

(Prepare yourself for a nice long list detailing my life)

•The highlight of your day is the UPS man coming (no Larry, not because I like their brown outfits. I love getting packages!)

•You spend an hour editing photos...because you can.
Before...

After...

And yes, when my custom made wet bags arrived I was very happy. You would be happy to get packages too you know. I can arrange that if you'd like to buy something ;)

•99% of your communication is with an animal or baby.

•You give your dog a pacifier...because you think it's funny and looks cute.


•You check facebook compulsively just because that's what you type as a reflex when you get online...all 987 times each day. Because you're home and you can do that.

•You can't remember the last time you left the house. (Larry sold his car and he usually has mine...can't go anywhere)

•You scavenge for food and succumb to eating stale chips...because you need groceries but can't get them.

•You spend your leisure time cloth diapering a stuffed bunny. If you know my business you'll understand...maybe.

•You take the time to prepare a picture of the bunny for a blog post.


•You have pictures of bunnies in diapers but none of you and your spouse going out on dates and such...not even of you and your spouse just sitting there.

•You think the trip to the grocery store is a date.

•You think it's August when it's December. The snow and cold helped me figure that one out. But again, I don't get out much to be aware of it.

•You miss school.

•You miss having a "real" job. I do like what I do but still...

•You tell your spouse about your day and all you really mention is something about diapers and the UPS guy coming.

•You start talking about socially unacceptable things when you actually come in contact with people...like how I remember vets throwing...um surgically removed parts...at vet techs.

•You just told more people about that...

•The most adventurous thing you did was in a dream...and you were surprised that Chuck Norris didn't show up this time.

•You have time to write blog posts like this.

Okay, I'm done for now ;) I bet I have lots more but I can't think anymore. After all, I spend most of my day not thinking much.

It's funny that I used to be gone 12 hours a day or so and my time at home was spent doing homework. I used to think "If I had time I would do this and that and use it so well." Uh...don't think so. I'm mad at myself for wasting SO much time. It's ridiculous.

Oh yeah...We Have a Blog

It's been a looong time since I posted. Here's a brief update of what we've been up to. Larry got a promotion and raise. I've been doing my daycare for a few months now. And we started a business. Check out megbeebaby.com if you haven't already. Okay, so it's not that exciting to see the coming soon page. It will go live December 1st hopefully. I got my business license and ordered my inventory. I'm really excited about it. I'm going to stop blogging now because we are both really sick and need to get better.

San Diego Trip

We had a great trip in San Diego California. I'd love to write all about it but I'm hitting the delirious stage of the flu...what a crappy souvenir. Anyway, it was so nice to have a week off together, just relaxing for a real vacation. First off, I just want to thank Jordan & Blake for letting us use their flyer reward thing so we could fly for free! We stayed at the Hampton Inn, which was nice. And we had a rental car, which made our lives much easier. Driving in CA wasn’t even bad…I guess cuz it was San Diego. It’s worse in Salt Lake in our opinions.

We got there on Thursday August 20th...after settling into the hotel we headed for the San Diego Zoo. It was nice and all, but it wasn't as great as I thought it'd be. We saw a whole lot more plants than we did animals. I actually thought the Hogle Zoo was better when it comes to seeing animals up close.

On Friday we went to Sea World. Larry had gotten passes for free at work. At least his work has its perks! We loved Sea World. In fact, it was our favorite part of the trip...for me at least, and probably Larry too. We especially loved the shows. We saw all of them while we were there. The Shamu Show was fun, but kind of cheesy..they even do a Shamu Chant to worship the great killer whale...the dolphin show was fun, those dolphins are so cute.

We saw Sea Lions Live which was really funny. Later that day we saw Sea Lions Tonight which was even funnier. I laughed so hard it hurt. They made fun of their other shows that we had seen that day and it was just hilarious. We also saw the Pets Rule Show which was really cute and funny. It was just tons of fun and totally worth it...wait, it was free, but still. We wrote their Journey to Atlantis ride which is like a mix of the log flume and a roller coaster. Larry loved it...I did too. So we spent a bit of the day wet but it was fine. To end our day there we went to the Shamu rocks show...I loved these cute whales that totally smiled...after the show there were fireworks to top it off.

On Saturday we went to the San Diego Temple which was beautiful. Later that night we went to Coronado Island. The beach was stormy looking and overcast but it was still fun...just cold. Sunday we went to Church...then we went for a walk at the Mission Bay Beach. Of course, in our attempt to keep the Sabbath Day holy, the weather was beautiful and it was so tempting to go swimming. But we didn't. We just walked along the shore together until we got to a nice spot to sit.

Monday we went to the Wild Animal Park. We weren’t all that impressed with it. It was just a lot of walking...and I saw more animatronic dinosaurs than real animals. There were cute baby cheetahs though. As we were walking my knee slipped and semi dislocated yet again. Then it was sore and I couldn't walk anymore. So we rode the Carousel. Larry rode a fierce Panda and I read a majestic leopard. Afterwards we headed back to Mission Bay. We had tons of fun playing in the waves.

Then Tuesday we went to this Science Center called RH Fleet. It was alright but we really weren't impressed. It was a lot like the Clark Planetarium. We saw a free IMAX under the sea movie...something like that. And we wasted our money on this virtual dinosaur thing; forget what they're called but it was really lame. We did this thing where you sit down and a machine takes your picture and then shows your age progression up to the age of 75.

Needless to say, Larry is now contemplating suicide and divorce. I don't trust the dang thing. We Campbell's age young and nicely...and I think Larry will too. Of course he claims he won't live long. I hate when he says that. Way to crush your wife's heart hun. Larry spent most of his time there being upset at greedy little children. We were playing with the exhibits and kids kept running up to them and stealing them right out of our hands. Anyway, enough about that. We headed to Mission Bay again and went Boogie Boarding. Tons of fun but kinda scary to get thrown off in those serious waves.

I don’t quite remember if it was Monday or Tuesday, but one of those days we went to Old Town San Diego and looked at the cute little road side shops. We just got bracelets for me…Larry said he didn’t want anything but later gave me a hard time that he didn’t get anything. Sheesh. Then Wednesday the 26th, we flew home..back to life…back to reality.

All in all we had a blast. It was an event filled trip and we came back with tans. Yay!

We really didn't take a lot of pictures on our trip for the following reasons: 1-we didn't want to get our cameras wet so we didn't always bring them, 2-we didn't want them to get stolen while we were playing at the beach, 3-I forgot to change the stupid batteries, and yes I brought plenty, just left them in the hotel room, and 4-one of the cameras didn't work & only took blurry photos..until we got home of course. If you want to see more photos go to Facebook. I'm getting kicked off the computer so I'll add pics later :D

Megan's Daycare for Babies

Well, after months on the job search I decided that it was time to go back to child care. I actually really enjoy it and I'm looking forward to doing it again. I'm especially happy that I'll be working from home! Larry's been really supportive of it...I think he's happy as long as I have some sort of a job. I feel good about it :)

Here are some pictures of my daycare room...I still have more stuff to add to it but this is it at the moment.

Life's Experiences

We attended Shelby's funeral today. I was very moved by the Spirit I felt.

I've just been thinking a lot again...imagine that. I've been realizing more and more how content I am with the experiences I've had in my life. I'm grateful for those experiences and how they all tie in together. I seriously feel like I have nothing to complain about and everything to be grateful for.

In the past few months I've been able to know two babies that have inspired me tremendously. I think about baby Gracie who has been through so many difficulties in her five months of life. And I think about baby Shelby who has returned Home to Heavenly Father after an amazing life of triumph over her struggles. It all brings everything into perspective. Life really is so precious.

Witnessing others experience trials has enlightened me and brought a deeper reverence for the relationships we have in this life. Not only in this life but through the eternities. I love the friends and family I have with me on the journey. I'm not trying to sound cheesy...I really feel these things deeply.

I'm grateful for the struggles I've had in different aspects of my life. It's always interesting to realize what their purpose is. For example, the miscarriage that I recently wrote about after one year. There were different things I learned but one of them in particular really stands out. I have learned to be sensitive to the unseen pains and sorrows of others. And I've learned to bear each others burdens. Having just a little taste of loss and longing has helped me be a better friend. We each have trials in our lives that others don't know about. We all have our crosses to bear. When we help each other carry those crosses, the greatest miracles happen.

In Memory, One Year Later

I feel uncomfortable talking about the miscarriage. Sometimes I feel like I'm pretty open about it...and other times, I feel like I hardly talk about it. No matter the case, I feel like I'm just trying to fill a void I can't understand. I just want to remember. I know what I felt before our angel left us. I loved them. We both did.

Yet many times, in the back of my mind I hear "you weren't that far along, and you were so young, it doesn't matter, stop mentioning it, you weren’t entitled to a baby now anyway." But none of that’s true. The only way to begin to understand is to go through it yourself. But even then, everyone has a different situation. For me, it's hard that we lost our first baby.

I think one of the hardest parts is not knowing exactly how it works; If the baby is now our guardian angel that we'll see on the other side or if the spirit never came and the baby will come again. All I know is that everything really does work out for our eternal welfare.

I really am doing well. I accepted what happened and I know God has a purpose to everything He does. It's just that longing that never leaves. I want what I had to come back to me. That's just how it is. I have my moments where it's a real struggle. But usually I just feel like my mind is paralyzed. I can't even find the emotions I felt for so long. My mind is just numb. It is definitely a roller coaster. I'm sad...then I'm numb...then I'm trusting...and so on.

I wrote this poem to describe how I feel.

Why is it that my heart is still aching?
It’s subtle but certain, my heart is just breaking.
The pain isn’t fading with each passing day.
My mind is numb, but I kneel down to pray.
I ask God to help me, to offer His care.
While something within me cries “this isn’t fair.”
I tell Him I trust Him, I trust in His plan.
I just can’t do it; I’ve done all I can.
I’m looking for answers, what is this I feel?
I’ve accepted the loss but I still need to heal.
Taken so soon, there was no goodbye.
Then He answers so softly, I’ll hold you...just cry.

Just Some Thoughts...

So I just felt like blogging a bit today...been up for two hours and still sitting here in my pajamas. I use my blog as a bit of a journal...but usually not too personal. Today I feel like writing though, hopefully not to my regret.

As some of you know, we are approaching the one year anniversary of the miscarriage. Father's Day was hard. We found out about the baby the previous Father's day. (Of course, Father’s day is hard anyway because Larry misses his dad.) Some people think that when you have a miscarriage it was nothing, you should just get over it. I'm still surprised at what it's really like to go through. How much you long for what you've lost no matter how much time passes. The only way to understand is to go through it yourself. I’ve moved on but it will always be in my mind. That’s just how it is. Anyway, I'll talk more about that later.

Things are going fine with us. We've just been stressed out because of my not working. I have at least one job prospect/interview a week and they don't pan out. The office job I had planned on doing wasn't right for me, so it fell through. I have two leads right now though: A veterinary reception job (which I really want) and going postal (which scares me)-I applied for Heidi's old job at usps…pays well though.

I've been trying to get my business going but haven't been able to market it much. So I haven't made any money doing that. I'm just feeling overwhelmed lately because I thought for sure I would have a good job by now. I'm a really good employee, educated, and have great customer service. I just can’t get anything. The jobs I could get pay beans. I'm collecting unemployment though, which helps a little.

Larry has been working a lot lately...not fun. Since he's a salaried employee, it doesn't bring us any more money. I feel confident that we'll be okay. We pay our tithing and do what's right. The Lord will come through for us. My optimism doesn't overshadow the burden that Larry feels. (He has a lot of medical bills on top of everything else) I just hope I can help Larry feel less stressed in the mean time. I think it bugs him that I’m so optimistic and honestly feel like things are good, because the stress is on him. I just feel like we're very blessed and everything will be okay.

I'm so happy that I'm married to him. There are times when we have difficulties, but who doesn't. It doesn't last long though because Larry has a way of making me laugh and turning things around in no time. I feel like things are going well for us and I'm happy. It's just been boring not doing much. And it kinda overwhelms me to realize that I could have gone to school this summer and graduated. Of course, I didn't because I thought I'd have a job.

So there ya go, a little insight into the life of Megan. It sounds kinda depressing. But in reality, I'm happy...just bored...and wondering what life has in store. I feel iffy wondering if the Lord will keep us in Utah or bring us to Kansas. I know that whatever happens will be right. Thanks for reading my ramblings! :)

K, these are just random photos...

Rain, rain, go away...(Kodi has a rain coat, and that makes him awesome)

"Please, no more pictures"

Larry serenading me with his guitar

I'd smile, but I still have braces and don't want to get all shimmery on you :)

For Father's Day, I got my dad a tie...since it was an obvious father's day present, I thought I'd wrap it as obvious as possible. How cool is that wrapping paper...it's even wearable. Don't worry, the tie underneath was nice.

My 21st Birthday

So I hit the big milestone...I turned 21 on June 11th :)(Meaning I now have a horizontal drivers license, yay me!) Of course I'll still be megan mormon, don't worry. I had a good birthday, thanks to Larry. He took me to the Roof for dinner. I love that place. And we got the best table too; right there closest to the towering Salt Lake Temple. We both stuffed ourselves with our money's worth...I didn't feel too well after that.

Here's me not acting my age...imagine that (yes I even got the "Megan just eat" line from Larry. My family was all too familiar with that phrase.)

Later, Larry gave me a cake and sang happy birthday to me. It was a beautiful rendition of course.
It was all stormy as it has been all June. I think God is still upset about the gay pride parade they had here in Salt Lake (that's when it started and it hasn't stopped since.) Something tells me some people won't like me for that comment..but hey. I even got a rainbow on my birthday. I just realized that's a funny thing to mention after my previous comment.

MegBee Productions

So, I'm trying to start this little business called MegBee Productions "Be Inspired to Be Remembered"...anyone who reads our blog already knows that though. I've always liked making short videos that tell a story or give a message. "Perfect Day" is a video I made of our wedding day. It really captures how I felt on that special occasion. Crazy it was already 13 months ago.

Fun Stuff

Today we had a fun day. I love when Larry has Saturday's off and we get a weekend together. First we headed to Sugarhouse Park for a bike ride. Larry picked out a new bike for me the other day. We figured it would be good for us to exercise together and get out and do stuff. The weather was great and it was so beautiful. I'm one of those people that admires the mountains, trees, flowers, and birds chirping. So it was nice to enjoy my wonderful Utah :) Well, I think I mostly enjoyed it while I was riding downhill. Can I just say, I do not like pedalling uphill!

Apparently I was never taught how to properly use the gears on a bike. So I got a crash course from Larry. I still don't really get it, but whatever. I just moved the thingies around to wear it didn't seem as hard. I guess I'm outa shape or something...I was dying going uphill. This police officer looked slightly amused while watching me struggle up those stupid hills. Good thing a helmet and sunglasses serves as somewhat of a disguise.

Eventually our ride came to an end. Larry beat me to the car and was already loading his bike and asked for my help. Unfortunately, I was not able to help out. Instead I laid on the grass, panting, adjusting to my legs feeling like jelly, and trying not to throw up. It was a lovely experience! But really, it was fun and we enjoyed the time outdoors together.

Here I am chugging powerade on the ride home...not a good idea after strenuous activity.

We then headed to the arcade where we hogged the Deal or No Deal game. We totally rule that game. We won over 1200 tickets! And I won the 400 ticket jackpot. Good thing we don't gamble in real life because we were crazy on that thing! Seriously, I don't care how old we are, the arcade is still fun.

On the way home we stopped for ice cream...sorry if I'm grossing you out.

Later, we went to help my mom and stepdad with their move to Herriman. We weren't there too long and I don't think I did all that much. I was being immature and trying on my mom's fuzzy black dress over my clothes. My fam fam looked at me like I'm a nutters. Well, after that, we made a stop at Michael's...who knew it could be such an amusing place...

Need I say more?


Arrr!!

K, my hair is doing something crazy weird here...just ignore that.

Alrighty that's all for now!

Catching Up

Okay, so I haven't blogged about anything we've been up to in a long time. So first off, our first wedding anniversary was April 22nd. We busted out the top teir of our wedding cake. It was so good, it was crazy!

To celebrate, we thought we'd go to the place we were married. So we went to the Salt Lake Temple where we went through a live endowment session. I went in behalf of my great grandma, Marie Louise Carlier. She's my mom's grandma that raised her in France. Anyway, it was special to be there together one year later.

As my gift to Larry we headed to the guitar store...I just think it's cute when he plays and sings to me.

Here's some random pictures of us lately...
He's a firefighter. Can someone explain to me why the Balsmeiers say that the way they do?

That's just me.

Kassi's new do. Okay, I just put a clip in her hair. She still needs her first hair cut...and she's eight months old. I think she's taking on a chewbaca type look. (like I know how to spell that)

Kodi got a new do too. I did it myself...I'm real big on saving money like that:) Before and after.


On our way to my mom's one day, we came across some people that nearly rolled their car down a hill. Larry went to help out. What a nice guy :)

That's just a bit that we've been up to. I'm going to post the rest of the random stuff separately...this is getting quite lengthy.

Tug 'O War

So, I still haven't posted anything on the blog that I said I would...Which is funny because I'm only home all the friggin time. Excuse my language ;) I was just watching videos from like six months ago and came across a cute one. Oh, and I will not be held responsible for any ensuing nausea or dizziness.

ZZZzzz

Okay, this is a really random post. Now that I'm unemployed (I'm not bitter) :) I'm super blogging happy. And yes, I will get to more about our anniversary soon. I just found these two pictures of me and larry snoozing with the dog. Just thought they were cute. Just ignore that my hair/make up aren't done, and I look even younger k? ;)

Baby Guinea Pigs

I was just telling Larry that I was really proud of myself for only having two pets, Kodi & Kassi. Well, in a moment of weakness, Larry offered to get me a baby hamster as an anniversary present. Actually he said, "We can either go to dinner at the Roof or you can get a hamster." Hmmm...fancy, delicious, romantic dinner...or a cuddly pet? Well, you know me-I went with the pet. Although I really would like a romantic date like that. We actually went there together before though. So, it was off to the pet store (this is the day before our anniversary. Pet stores really aren't the coolest place to hang our on your anniversary.) Well, the hamsters I kept finding had attitude issues. I guess they weren't handled much. So, we decided to take a look at guinea pigs. Larry told me he had one as a pet before and really liked them. Growing up my sisters had guinea pigs, but I never did. Anyway, to get to the point, we picked out a little four-week-old female. I named her Hershey. We took her home and I was quite happy with my new pet (Except for that dreaded feeling-"oh no, you have a zoo again.") We read up on guinea pigs and realized that they are really social and need a friend. So, the next morning we visited the pet store again (on our actual anniversary. Oi.) and got another female. I named her KitKat. It's still kind of unofficial, but I'm pretty sure. I can't name 'em Hershey and Sally or something-they both need to be candy bars now. Plus, KitKat fit her because part of her ears have been nibbled off. (By her siblings...I'm not that nuts!) And apparently, they don't grow back! Break me off a piece of that Kit Kat Bar! Sigh...well, now I have more pet stuff to blog about. I'm sorry and I hope you'll forgive me. Here's a video of Hershey making cute noises...

One Year Anniversary

I just wanted to say that I am so grateful to be married to Larry. I feel so happy and secure with him. He really is my greatest blessing. Not to sound cheesy...It's true! I'm so glad we are sealed together for all eternity. I love you Larry, more than anything. I'll post about our anniversary when I get the chance tomorrow.

Happy Anniversary!

I want to be the first to say Happy Anniversary to you Megan! I love you. I'm surprised that you have been able to make it through 1 full year with me! Wow, what an accomplishment! It has been so much fun. I have enjoyed being married to my bestfriend. 1 year down, millions more to go! Here's to many more wonderful and exciting years! I love you.

Larry

Muddy Paws

Everyone knows that Kassidy is a bit of a trouble maker. One of her bad habits involves doing 'zoomies' in the backyard. Larry planted new grass so it's been muddy. I left Kassy outside for one minute and this is what I came back to. Let me in! (I don't think so) So of course, I had to give her a bath. My family came over for Easter dinner and I thought it would be nice if Kass didn't smell like a bucket of dead squirrels. Here's a video of her antics during the drying process.

Our Cute House

Here are the pictures I promised. New paint, new carpet, new stuff.
Welcome to the kitchen

And again...

Dining area...yeah, I'm aware that a lightbulb is out

Random pic of hall/living room

Living room, facing the computer (where Larry looks quite comfortable)

Giant strawberries on the TV (I'm a sucker for Larry's puppy dog eyes-why else would we have a flat screen tv?) Oh, but I must say: watching General Conference on that thing is like being there!

Our blue and brown walls...I know, we have a colorful little place

Our comfy room again

I'm hoping this room will become the nursery someday...it's currently a workout room.

The bathroom

That's "bubbles," our fishy in the bathroom

Kodi smiling in the hallway

So there ya go! :)